Does anybody know that? Can you trust them if they provide an answer to that question? I used to be filled to the brim with certainty, but now I am not so sure. I know I held staunch beliefs on many things, but as I grow older, I find myself more confused. What was once black and white is now gray. It has come to my attention I am uncertain about most things, and what I thought was true is actually false.
I’m almost positive I am 95% full of shit.
But what if I don’t want to be the person full of shit. What if I want to be solid from the core of my being to the outward appearance you see in public? How can one do that? Does anyone do that?
This is the gist of my goal.
I read in a book somewhere that intimacy is the freedom to be exactly who you are even as your partner is rejecting you. It is common knowledge rejection is probably the worst thing in the world, so how do some people manage to get past it and remain on a solid foundation in the face of adversity? How does one build such a solid foundation inside oneself even the most private relationships do not cause it to shift?
I guess this blog is my attempt at introspection. It is my attempt at holding myself accountable. It is my attempt at building a solid foundation while risking the inevitable rejection, because rejection, at some point, is inevitable. Maybe this will speak to you, and maybe it will be a complete waste of my time. Either way, I won’t know unless I risk the injury of criticism.